Shine on you crazy diamond

When you're sick...

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 20:43:05 GMT

you get bored, and when you get bored you get to repeat stupid silly games haha

TO TAKE THIS SURVEY, SIMPLY PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE -
- AND ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WITH THE TITLE OF THE SONG THAT COMES ON -
[it's better if you don't cheat and don't skip any songs.]

What is your name? Or what should your name be? "One love"- Blue
How is your life going? "Blood" - MCR (how typical for today haha)
What is your nickname? "Reflections" - Mariah Carey
What is your theme song? "Kiss from a rose" - Seal (live)
What is your best friend's theme song? "Lonely Alcoholic" - Mika (erm... not quite the song I had in mind!)
How is your life going to turn out? "Pieces of heaven" - Mark Owen (and if there's a God then why won't he talk to me... yep, seems about right...)
Will you get married? "Arms around me" - Gary Barlow (does that mean I'll get someone who'll hold me close?)
Will you have kids? "Million faces" - Paolo Nutini (i do want a lot of kids, but a million?!)
What will your job be? "Tapdancing on a highwire" - Ilse de Lange (omg am I joining the circus? I can't do that, I swear I can't!)
Did you/will you finish school? "It's a feel good thing" - S Club 7
Who is your best friend? "The only one" - Darren Hayes
Who is or will be your significant other? "Somebody to love" - Queen :D
Who do you like? "the happiest days of our lives" - Pink Floyd (it IS the song Jase used for the UT...)
How will you die? "A whole new world" - Aladin (so there's heaven after all?)
How do you feel right now? "I shall be there" - B*witched
What is your favorite song? "Alone in love" - Mariah Carey
How could you describe your parents? "Everybody hurts" - REM
Your best friend[s]? "Wonderful" - Gary Go (so true!!!)
Your teachers? "She couldn't laugh" - Twarres
Your significant other [or crush...]? "Closest thing to crazy" - Katie Melua (haha)
Yourself? "Coming up easy" - Paolo Nutini (well that's true, I'm trying LOL)
What is your best feature? "Privacy" - Blue ;)
What will you be / should you be, profession-wise? "I'll be okay" - McFly (so I shouldn't worry about losing my job?)
How would you describe this survey? "One wild night" - Bon Jovi
What makes you angry? "Crazy warnings" - Kane
What makes you sad? "Is there anybody out there?" - Pink Floyd :(
What makes you happy? "When I saw you" - Mariah Carey :D
What makes you dance? "You" - Take That haha
What is your favorite color? "Freedom" - George Michael
How would you describe yourself? "Crazy" - Britney Spears (ROFL)
Who is your worst enemy? "Candyman" - Christina Aguilera (never take candy from a stranger hey? haha)
Who do you hate? "Breathless" - the Corrs (true, I hate being out of breath, like now!)
Who do you love? "Soulmate" - Natasha Beddingfield :D
Who do you lust after? "nobody else" - Take That :D

Finish the Sentece

I wish (for) "Everything you want" - Kane
I want to (be) "Us and them" - Pink Floyd
I want to kill "Rain" - Mika
I want to eat (the) "Boys and Girls" - Pixie Lott (I don't eat people!)
My head (is) "Slam" - Louise
I am "the Impossible" - Mariah Carey
My best feature is "Unintended" - Muse
My eyes are "Lost without you" - Darren Hayes (live)
My hair is "decode" - Paramore
My face is "Forever Love" - Gary Barlow
You should "leave right now" - Wil Young hahahaha

Random

Words of advice "It's London calling" - Kane ( i know!)
How do others see me? "Crazy little thing called love" - Queen :D
How do I see myself? "Day tripper" - the Beatles

Inspired

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 22:16:47 GMT

Never thought I'd say this, not in a million years, but I'm inspired by Michael Jackson.

Have seen the docu 'This is it' today and all I wanted to do was get up and dance.
I can't say I've ever been a MJ fan. Did like some of his songs but always found the man himself a bit creepy. But blimey that man could sing, dance, perform!
And boy I was so proud seeing Timor dance his heart out :D A true dutchie on stage :D
Such a shame MJ passed away, honestly, this would have been quite a show to see.
All these dance moves and stuff... if I was allowed to dance in the aisle I would have been. The girls from my class already asked me if I could choreograph anything to one of his songs as they adored the Thriller routine I did last year.
I'm going to use 'Black or White' since its one of my fave songs, want to put some real MJ moves in it.
Can't wait to start, will do that as soon as I'm back from London!

Could it be magic?

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 20:29:26 GMT

So basically it's been my dream to move to the UK ever since I was a little girl.
My mum can remember me telling her I wanted to live in England when I was about 9-years-old. Perhaps that had something to do with the fact I was in love with a certain guy from a certain boyband, but even when that band split 2 years later, my love for England (and that man *lol*) stayed.
Just before I went off to highschool, I went to London for the very first time. Me and my mum together. Staying in a fancy hotel near High Street Kensington, enjoying the London life.
And as the years passed, the want to live there only increased. Whenever I go there, I feel right at home. Feels like there's something missing when I'm here in Amsterdam.
Can't explain what it is, I just feel free when I'm in the UK.

As I grew older, my ultimate dream became to be an actress in England. I know the chances are way smaller even then they are here, but even if I'll never make it, it will always be my dream.
English costume drama is what I dream of, just put me in a dress and give me a Mr Darcy *lol*
But any drama is fine by me.

And so after highschool, I went to dramaschool. Finished that last year and thought about going to London.
Contacted some amazing people over there, like Tim Driessen, a Belgian guy who played in Never Forget the musical. Told him he lived a life I dreamt of and if he had any ideas of what I could do. He gave me a long list, very nice guy!
Then Ciaran Connolly. Take That's best dancer and cutest guy EVER, mailed me and gave me some more advice.
I kept coming back to my ultimate dream school. The LAMDA. Known as one of the best drama schools in the UK, some even say the world.
They now have this special summer programm for people who've already finished a dramaschool abroad, but want to try and act in the UK.
It's a tough course, you need to work real hard, improvise, work with texts, movement, voice training, improve your english, learn how to get on in the industry and finish with a presentation.
I wanted to apply, but the thing was, you needed to have studied English. Either short or long, but something at the least.
And I haven't.
So I panicked for a short moment and then asked my good friend Petra for help. She lives in England now for years and years but does know the Dutch school system as well.
I wrote a letter in Dutch, she translated to English and her boyfriend Andrew, who's a writer, made the letter perfect.
In the letter I explained why I wanted to take the course, how it's my dream and why I think my English is strong enough already. Explained about the Dutch school system, that I got a 9,5 in my oral exam (out of 10), that you could compare VWO to A-Level studies etc. etc.
The letter was just perfect.
And today I got a reply....

I was so nervous opening the mail...
But it was the best EVER! It said the letter was good enough and I could apply. *screams*
I can apply on October 1st. Have to attach the letter and then pray to get in (as there are limited places, applying doesn't garantuee a place...)
Seriously, I am so happy with the fact that I'm allowed to apply, it's not even normal!!!

The only thing now is, I need to safe my money BIG time. The course is incredibly expensive.
Now Gemma offered that I can stay in her house the entire course since she has a spare room, to safe me some money.
I might take her up on that offer since it could safe me a lot.
The only thing is that she lives just outside London, which would mean I'd have to travel a lot, and since the school's in Kensington, I prefer to stay around there.
Now I'm going to try and search for something. I'd love to stay in the Pink Palace during the course, but that would be expensive.
My mum and sister might want to come over though, for the last week of the course, to see my presentation (I don't even know if that's allowed yet but still). That could safe me some money too, as they will pinch in.
If I get in, it means I'll be saving every penny I can get my hands on. Which means I probably will not be the best friend in the world... won't call much, will still texts as that costs less, won't travel if I don't have too... sounds strict but I don't have much money to begin with and since I'll be losing my job by the end of this year, I need to try and safe as much as I can.
So I hereby would like to apologize to everyone if I won't be in touch much. I'll be online a lot so I won't be out of touch, I just have to do everything I can to get my hands on some money. (And I doubt Jason wanting to sponsor me... though I'll pay him back with interest ;) )
As it would be totally devistating if I get in, but have to turn it down since I can't afford it!

I just have to think about all that...
Or maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should first wait and see if I get in. Or else I might be really disappointed if I don't... I don't want to jinx anything...

but maybe, just maybe, my dream is going to come true!

Lamb for life!

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:27:32 GMT

Wow.. just wow...
am so incredibily happy with Mariah's new material, she always manages to make an album and comfort you in your down times.
Just when I needed it the most, she sang 'Close my eyes'.
That song pulled me through a lot when the Butterfly album was released and all the stuff with my dad happened.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdxmRi4M0kg
the lyrics say it all don't they?

Verse 1
I was a wayward child
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn't know

Chorus 1
But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And let times roll by
Still I feel like that child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon

Verse 2
Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away
I left the worst unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget

Chorus 2
As I close my eyes
Steady my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And let time roll by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon

Bridge
Nearing the edge
Oblivious I almost
Fell right over
A part of me
Will never be quite able
To feel stable
That woman-child feeling inside
Was on the verge of fading
Thankfully I
Woke up in time

Verse 3
Guardian angel I
Sail away on an ocean
With you by my side
orange clouds roll by
They burn into your image
And you're still alive
(You're always alive)

Chorus 3
As I close my eyes
Steady my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And though time rolls by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon

and not only that, she's just back and better then she has been in a long time. Singing old and new songs, darker curled hair, she just seems so much happier ever since she's been with Nick :D it makes me smile!
Can't wait to see her on Oprah friday, to hear her sing 'I want to know what love is'. Perfect cover...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvIDY_n0gsQ
just goosebumps all over!
and Angels Cry... is just another superb song. Am counting the days till the new record will be in my hands. Just 10 more days!
and then I'll start praying she'll do a Euro tour again, it's been way too long since I've seen her perform!

Got this thing on Facebook...

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 21:10:09 GMT

and was surpised by all the songs I got, since I normally get totally different songs when I shuffle my ipod.
So I thought, let's give it another go on here, see what happens this time :P

so here it goes, the first 15 songs my Ipod plays when I press shuffle:

1. Take That - Greatest Day (that seems more like it :P)

2. My Chemical Romance - The End.

3. Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb

4. Katie Melua - Lilac Wine

5. Darren Hayes - the heart wants what it wants

6. Lee Mead - Any dream will do

7. Mariah Carey - And you don't remember

8. Savage Garden - Crash and Burn

9. Louise - i pray

10. Darren Hayes - Feel

11. The Kelly Family - Santa maria

12. Gary Barlow - Never knew

13. Queen - Under pressure

14. James Blunt - Wisemen

15. Paolo Nutini - Candy

well, it is a bit more what I usually listen yeah :D
love how this time it opened with TT, and ended with one of my fave songs of the moment... and I got both Darren and Savage in my list this time :D

stupid games, but hey, I'm bored...

Said it all...

Fri, 08 May 2009 11:17:12 GMT

WOW...
that's all there really is to say isn't there?
I mean, last night, when I came home after the show, I checked my mail, and all the forums to see if I had missed anything.
And there it was, the preview for the new Take That video. Only 40 seconds, but long enough to make me cry already. I just was amazed by how it looked and couldn't wait to see the full video.
So this morning, I was impatiently waiting till the clock hit 11.
And my mouth fell open. How unbelievably beautiful is this video?!
I mean, it's arty, love the lightning, the thought behind it, the sadness, the whole setting, the song -ofcourse-, everything just fits.
It's brilliant!

Now they've made 4 videos with this new album:
Greatest Day: very high tech. Everything just perfectly filmed, really clean and poppy like, beautiful nontheless. You can see there's a lot of money spend on that video.
Up all night: a total diference. Made in a few hours, a bit 'old school'. Loads of people, a party... Different then what they had done before, no 'pop' guys anymore. More sufisticated.
The Garden: black and white. Stunning. Really simple. Fits the song perfectly.
Said it all: brilliand. Arty. High class. Bring on the circus!

I love it that they aren't afraid of trying out new things. I mean, I didn't like UAN that much, but if you look at everything, you must give them credit for trying to keep doing new things.
I honestly can't wait for the tour to start. I told Ciaran I didn't want to know any spoilers, as he kept saying I'll be blown away etc. etc. That it will be the best show EVER.
And to be honest, I'm the most excited to see everyone again. Catherine told us already she'd probably cry when she'll see us again, and so will I.
Before the concert will start we will all be a complete mess :P
But it's going to be a blast!
Just 28 more days, which means 27 days till I'll hop on the boat :D

Watch all the videos here:
Greatest Day:

Up all night:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vfZ68iH3cKs (couldn't embed it for some reason :S)

The Garden:

Said it all:

My day to day life

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 08:30:32 GMT

monday: work from 11.00-18.00 school from 19.30-23.00
tuesday: morning, making danceclass, 15.30-17.00 teaching danceclass, 19.30-22.00 ballet
wednesday: work from 9.15-18.00
thursday: school from 9.30-21.30
friday: guitar lessons from 11.00-12.00, school from 17.00-22.00
saturday: free
sunday: work from 11.15-17.00

I have only 1 free day a week and a few free hours spread over the week...
In that spare time, I'd like to have contact with my friends, go outside, go see a movie or whatever.
But I also have to clean the house or do the laundry (as I have to pinch in, my mum will kill me if I don't) and have to do my dad's finances (not to mention visit him every now and again). And there is ofcourse homework to be done, lines to be learned.
And most of the time I'm just knackered in those free hours and just lay on my bed or couch.

I know this is only till the first week of May when i finally graduate...
But if I'm not online often, and if I'm a bad friend for not being in contact a lot, I'm very very sorry. Believe me, I wish i could be a better friend but I'm just so exhausted. :(

BUT good things to look forward too:
Yesterday we booked our flights/busses/boat: Sunderland, Manchester, London HERE I COME!
Not to mention our 2 beautiful apartments :D

Just got to get through these 4 months and then I'll be back, I promise!

p.s.
for everyone who can/wants to come over: my graduation play will be in the Fijnhouttheatre on may 6,7,8,9 and 10.

now that the year has gone...

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 21:54:20 GMT

01. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
have therapy

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
well I wanted to work on myself and I sure did!
and I always make new ones (losing weight, spending more time with friends)

03. Did someone close to you give birth?
a girl from ballet did, and one from my class is about to :D

04. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my teacher Lucas.

05. What countries did you visit?
England and Germany (wanted to write down more but just realised the tour was in 2007 *lol*)

06. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
a place of my own, is it allowed to want Jason?? :P

07. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 1st, TT launchparty and to be more specific, meeting the guys in the morning and meeting loads of new friends that day!

08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year?
standing up for myself

09. What was your biggest failure(s)?
still thinking too much...

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
always don't i??

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Mika tickets as it brought me Lyss :D

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
no idea

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
some stupid dutch tt fans...

14. Where did most of your money go?
erm... take that?!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Lyss coming over to see me and going to London

17. Compared to this time last year, are you
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? about the same
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

16. . . .is not here, apparently.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
see my friends

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
at my aunt's with family

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
still have a starcrush, so no real love no.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
As the World Turns, Supernatural and Grey's anatomy

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
hate is a big word but yeah I think I do.

26. What was the best book you read?
the sonet lover - Carol Goodman

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
musical as in music or as in musical? Didn't go to any musicals this year... but on music area: MCR didn't really know them before Lyss came over :D

28. What did you want and get?
to feel free, got that for a big part

29. What did you want and not get?
erm... a normal life?

30. Favorite film of this year?
into the wild

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
23, did have some people over for a small party.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
if my dad wouldn't have been here...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
sophisticated

34. What kept you sane?
my friends, my music (am I sane? that's the question :P)

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
do we really need to ask?? JASON ORANGE :D

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage bans can still (*&^&*^% me off

37. Who do you miss?
my friends

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I met sooooo many people... Lyss (but had met her the year before so guess that doesn't count...), Tina, Heidi, Bec and Dawn I guess :D

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
you're worth it to excist

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
'Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup- what's in is dispair
So throw on that black dress
Mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice
You're something you're not...'

Music thingy stolen from Lyssbliss :D

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 09:14:43 GMT

Put your mp3-player on shuffle and fill out the gaps.. NO CHEATING!! :D

1. How does the world see me? Teardrop - Massive Attack (erm... well I do cry alot... maybe that's it?!)

2. Will I have a happy life? Ordinary People - John Legend (right! I don't want to be ordinary...)

3. What do my friends really think of me? The great big disconnect - Darren Hayes (well that seems logical :D)

4. Do people secretly lust after me? Hedoism - Skunk Anansie (WHAT?!)

5. How can I make myself happy? Shake it off - Mariah Carey (probably right...)

6. What should I do with my life? Let me live - Queen (how suitable :D)

7. Will I ever have children? The winners song - Geraldine (aka Peter Kay) (OMFG this is hilarious, does this mean a yes?)

8. What is some good advice for me? I'm out - Take That (so what kind of advice is that???)

9. How will I be remembered? My hearts desire - Kane (wow :D)

10. What is my signature dancing song? All rise - Blue

11. What do I think my current theme song is? It's a beautiful day - Queen (am NOT agreeing with this...)

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Crash and Burn - Savage Garden (oooh...)

13. What song will play at my funeral? Is there anybody out there - Pink Floyd (that seems good to me :D)

14. What type of men/women do you like? Gimme more - Britney Spears (what? so I fancy a guy who can poledance... SO WHAT? *giggles*)

15. What is my day going to be like? All in a day - the Corrs

16. Will be my wedding song? Tomorrow - Annie (LOL)

17. Will be the last words coming from my mouth? The sharpest lives - My Chemical Romance (alright then ;))

18. Will be the first thing I say to my unknown love to come? Save me - Queen (that is a bit desperate but true...)

19. Will be the song I sing to my lover on our first date? The way you make me feel - Ronan Keating (a bit much to sing on a first date isn't it?)

20. Will be the song my lover sing to me? 2 become 1- Spice Girls (how typical men LOL)

21. How will my life end? Forbidden Fruit Jessica Simpson (am I dying from a poisend apple?????)

22. Will I be reborn? What you believe in Take That (I´ll take that as a yes)

23. Will be my heartbroken song? Lonely too Ilse de Lange (that´s one sad song that is....)

TAKE THAT AND PAAAAAAARTYYYYY!!!!

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 08:05:37 GMT

had a fabulous birthday party yesterday!
Thanks to everyone who came, really had a blast :D

got spoiled rotten!

here are a few pics, I forgot to take pics throughout the evening... so my mum made a few but not of everyone...
me in the kitchen working haaaard
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0848.jpg
me and my sis:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0854.jpg
uncle and girl from my class:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0858.jpg
jack (sort of uncle who taught me how to crave ) and me:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0860.jpg
my aunt:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0861.jpg
highschoolfriend+her boyfriend, exgf of my dad, my sis, and a girl from ballet:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0863.jpg
highschoolfriend + boyfriend:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0866.jpg
my mums best friend:
http://i199.photobucket.com/albums/aa230/sarah_orange/100_0867.jpg

thanks again everyone!!!!

What the world needs now...

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:21:10 GMT

in a reply to Lyss her post earlier...

I think that whole Europe is standing behind Obama...
let's pray (even if you don't believe) that the Americans will do too...

I really think the world will be a scary place if he looses!

Bicycle race!

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 07:10:05 GMT

I want to ride my bicycle bicycle bicycle
I want to ride my bicycle
I want to ride my bike
I want to ride my bicycle
I want to ride it where I like

FIrst birthday pressie has arrived!
A new bike, in black (ofcourse ;) ) three locks and a basket I can hang on the steering wheel :D

Sooo happy. Sounds stupid perhaps but without your bike, in Amsterdam, you somewhat have lost your freedom!

and now I'm able to go where I want to again, without being afraid that my bike will stop working...
Now the only thing i need to make sure of is that it won't get stolen ;)

The winner takes it all!

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 21:40:19 GMT

WE WOOOONNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know, it shouldn't be such a big issue for Ajax, but lately it has been.
In the competition we suck and we might have won our first duel in the UEFA cup (that ain't CL is it?!)

so tonight we had to play our first Cup game against Utrecht, which is always a real hard game with loads of cards and fights and stuf...
Utrecht got a red card, we got a penalty, we missed and it looked like we were doomed again....
BUT then we scored twice and played real good football :D
we should've scored more, but heck, we can't complain, we bloody WON!

let's hope this will be normal from now on again, it's about time we start winning the chamionship again... :)

Carry on dancing

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 20:43:35 GMT

Like I mentioned in one of my previous blogs, I decided to quit dance teaching.
Just because of lack of time and stuff...

Now my mum had a meeting today so she just got home and I just got home from ballet, she said:
'Sweetie, you have to see this...'

and guess what?
One of the girls from her class decided it was time for a petition to bring me back O__o
yes you are hearing that correctly!

and 10 girls signed it.
Now how can I resist teaching those sweet kiddos???
So I told my mum that I'll write a note for the parents, and if they still want to pay me, I'll do it.
Just an hour a week though, nothing more.
And just untill the my graduation, after that, it's TT time :lol:

Can you believe it?
I'm actually wanted somewhere... and they all think I'm brilliant *ignorant little kids*

WOW... I'm still a bit like O___o

it does mean it will be one busy year for me, but this is something... man, i feel really honoured or something :)

in loving memory of Rick...

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 19:14:07 GMT

just to add some more, this is written on David Gilmore's website:

No one can replace Richard Wright. He was my musical partner and my friend.

In the welter of arguments about who or what was Pink Floyd, Rick's enormous input was frequently forgotten.

He was gentle, unassuming and private but his soulful voice and playing were vital, magical components of our most recognised Pink Floyd sound.

I have never played with anyone quite like him. The blend of his and my voices and our musical telepathy reached their first major flowering in 1971 on 'Echoes'. In my view all the greatest PF moments are the ones where he is in full flow. After all, without 'Us and Them' and 'The Great Gig In The Sky', both of which he wrote, what would 'The Dark Side Of The Moon' have been? Without his quiet touch the Album 'Wish You Were Here' would not quite have worked.

In our middle years, for many reasons he lost his way for a while, but in the early Nineties, with 'The Division Bell', his vitality, spark and humour returned to him and then the audience reaction to his appearances on my tour in 2006 was hugely uplifting and it's a mark of his modesty that those standing ovations came as a huge surprise to him, (though not to the rest of us).

Like Rick, I don't find it easy to express my feelings in words, but I loved him and will miss him enormously.

David Gilmour
Monday 15th September 2008

some more to add:
Roger Walters site is now full of candles...

and from the PF website:

http://www.pinkfloyd.co.uk

what else can I say?
after Syd, this is the second member of PF who dies of cancer... I know Syd left the band early, but he was always there, wasn't he?
Even at the Live 8 concert, you could feel his presence... and now, Richard too...
*sobs*
life can be unfair sometimes...
This is, for me, the second man that inspired me who died this year. After loosing my headmaster from school to cancer, now one of the founders of Pink Floyd.

I've learned one thing out of this and that's to live life and love life the best you can, 'cause it can be over in a sec!
So I'll try to live life to the fulliest

Shine On!

stolen from Blandine hihihi

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 14:57:51 GMT

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? No.
2) What was your dream growing up? to be a singer/dancer or a vet
3) What talent do you wish you had? any... no in all seriousness, i'd love to be able to write books
4) If I bought you a drink what would it be? tea :D
5) Favorite vegetable? I like loads... asparagus I really like :D
6) What was the last book you read? "the Sonnet lover" by Carol Goodman
7) What zodiac sign are you? Libra
8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. I've got my ears pierced. Would loooove a tattoo, but am too scared of needles and pain. AND I have too much scars on my body...
9) Worst Habit? Sarcasm
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? erm... don't know how to interpertate this question LOL
11) What is your favorite sport? I love to watch sports like football, tennis, figure skating etc. But I only dance myself (ballet, modern dance)
12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? Normally optimistic, but lately negative, but that's cause things keep falling apart... but I like to think everything happens for a reason and we should all look on the brightside of life :D
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? Talk...
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? My dad the last 5 years...
15) Tell me one weird fact about you. I sometimes leave the house without doing anything with my hair or looking in a mirror LOL
16) Do you have any pets? Not anymore unfortunately :(
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? absolutely :D
18) What was your first impression of me? We've never met, but on the net you seem to be lovely :D
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? used to love them, now I think they're scary
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? do you have a moment? my, where to begin... i only like my hands... so anything else I'd change...
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? depends on what you've done, but I'll back you up if you need me :D
22) What color eyes do you have? Blue-greenish grey *lol*
23) Ever been arrested? No
24) Bottle or can soda? Soda, but rather have fruitjuice or tea
25) If you won $10,000/£10,000 today, what would you do with it? Move to England ofcourse :) (there's a BIG difference between a dollar and a pound btw ;))
27) What's your favorite place to hang at? St. Anns square in Manny, the harbour in London
28) Do you believe in ghosts? Not sure... while watching SN I certainly do *lol*
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Write, sing, dance, watch movies and chat with friends
30) Do you swear a lot? yes, but in english...
31) Biggest pet peeve? don't really know...
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? Daydreamer
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? love it, am born for it *lol*
35) Do you believe in God? Nope

R.I.P.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 07:04:59 GMT

Richard William Wright

thank you so much for the beautiful music you've made, for inspiring me and many others...
you were an amazing artist.
May you rest in peace, you will be sincerely missed...

Shine on you crazy diamond!

this was it... no more reunions possible... so, so sad... :( :(

GREAT GIG IN THE SKY will live forever in our hearts

we're gonna be so good!

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 07:43:28 GMT

I realised that I'm only blogging when I'm down... time to change that, don't you think?!

So, this morning, I woke up insanely smiley :D
was talking till late last night with Heidi and she sure cheered me up :)
Had a good night sleep, now I'm up and getting ready for work.
I honestly don't even dread to go today.
The weather is good, my mood is perfect

this is going to be a gooood day, that I'm sure of :D

Wonderful World?!

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 20:49:44 GMT

yeah, rumor has it that's one of the songs of TT's new record :D

but that wasn't what I wanted to say.
FIrst of all: thank you all for your concern, but I'm fine, doctor cleared me.
Got different meds and quit my dance teaching job.
Didn't want to do the last thing, but I HAD to take it easier or else I'd died or something...

now back to what I was going to say:

I'm a good actress and I'm beautiful!

ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL

nope, I haven't turned all cocky and arrogant, don't believe it just yet.
But people start saying it to me all the time now...
I actually am starting to believe that I have some acting skills.
There was this assignment (really hard to explain...) but anyways, I was the only one who managed to do it. AND when I got home, my headmaster of the school who gave that class texted me: Dear Sarah, you did amazing. Well done! Now let it go and enjoy your weekend! love, Thijs.

I was like O___o omg... he is known to be the thoughest teacher EVER!
so I felt real good.

Besides that, my classmates are really impressed too. They all say that they don't know what happened but over summer, I changed a lot. Are stronger, more open and more selfconfident (thinking Lyss boosting my confidence starting to show *giggles*)

And they say I look good. Which is nice that they are noticing since I'm working out and watching my diet for weeks now :D

then today, at work. I had a customer saying: I know they probably tell you all the time, but you are really beautiful, inside out!
I blushed insanely... *too bad it wasn't a cute guy saying so*
but I felt loads better throughout the day after that!!!
I'm not believing that part yet though, mirrors I look in don't show what other people apparently see... :S
but hey, it's a start that other people see it :D

Breathe deep...

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 20:58:10 GMT

posted this on my other blog as well, but since not all of you can read that, thought I'd post it on here too:

DONT FREAK OUT!!

but I fainted today. No need to worry, I was only gone for a second and it has happened to me before!
It hadn't happened in a while though, last time I was with Jo and Devon on a fair... and I hadn't been eating for far too long.
This time was different though. Felt a bit like when I had glandular fever, happened to me back then all the time. Well and with my low bloodpressure it's still no surprise. It just hadn't happened in a long time!

All cause of school (and perhaps exhausting...) we had to do this breathing technique and right after that we had to do a heavy intense excersise, running around etc.
I started to get dizzy, but neglected it. Just drank some water.
Later on in class we had to get totally blank and let emotions overcome.
Suddenly I started crying *dead embarissing* which leaded to hyperventilating, I was already so far that I started to get insanely hot and taking clothes off... then everything went black. I was up again straight afterwards, shaking from the cold (thanks to the sweat and less clothes :S)
Classmates were shocked, (thankfully we have a girl who's a doctor aswell and she checked me out) but I was okay. Not good but not bad either.
Stayed but didn't do much. Just got home, told my mum everything. She's glad I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow.

NOT TO WORRY!!!!
like I said, it happened to me loads before, I always get in trouble when I'm either not eating well, tired or it's too hot outside... I know how to handle it, just drink or eat and then its over.
So don't worry, I'm doing fine! :D

I want to break free...

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 05:34:30 GMT

Don't get me wrong, I loooove my acting and so I love school.
I love to read and I like to work in a bookstore.
I love to dance and stuff but my schedule is soooo full....

look at this:
monday: school till 11, work from 12 till 6
tuesday: giving danceclass in the afternoon (which I have to prepare for in the morning), balletclass myself in evening till 10
wednesday: work all day
thursday: school from 9.30 to 21.30 O___o
friday: guitar lessons in the morning, from 5 till 9.30 school...
saturday: free :D (yes you heard that correctle, but probably have loads of homework to do :s)
sunday: work again

now I have friends I'd love to see, as without them I can't live... where do they fit in??
And this schedule only shows work and school. I still got a dad to take care of (financially and I should visit every now and again)
then I'm doing schools administration as well.
Oh, and ofcourse, can't let my mum do all at home. Have to clean, cook and do groceries and stuff like that too....

erm... right....

so if you don't see me online that often now school's started: I'm probably exhausted and lying in bed (won't write down 'sleeping' since I'm still having trouble with that too...)

oh, and some more things to worry about:
tour.
see I told everyone that I would be off from May and everything would be fine? well I totally forgot that i'm coworking with my mum on her musical... and that's in June... :S

right, I'm off to work... today even longer then normally since we have a meeting after the shop's closed...

Let's go 'round again :D

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 09:22:25 GMT

and it's confirmed: Take That is going to do a promo tour 'round Europe starting October!!!

Nothing we didn't already knew, but now it's really confirmed. And Europe... that means I might get a chance of seeing them again!!!
As they've never skipped our humble little country so far.... (thinks: Akbar...and How still wants to buy a place here...)

OMG! I really can't wait. This was just what I needed to lift my spirits up :D

I can't wait to hear the new single... just one more month.... I was already counting the weeks since it's my birthday in October, but screw my birthday! I've got other things to look forward too now :D

I keep smiling the entire time :D
My jaws are starting to hurt but I can't help it... I'm toooooooooooo happy!

I feel good!

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 12:29:12 GMT

thought I'd leave a happy blog for once :P

As I'm going to Jo in an hour, I'm really excited.
I always miss having my friends around, the moment they leave my side.
'Cause I love them to bits and always feel loads better when they're around.
And since Lyss and Kira live in Norway, Paul, Rita, Tracey etc live in England, Tina lives in Germany, Gizzy lives in Turkey...
well let's say, I've got friends, but they are spread all around Europe....
none of them live with me in Amsterdam. So every chance that I have to see any of my friends, I'll grab it with both hands :D

Fen was supposed to come over too, but she's going to see Gary instead (wise choice, if it was Jay, I would have done the same)
So it's just Jo and me (and her son of course :D)
better count on staying up late wastching and drooling over our men ;)

Scary but exciting news: my danceclass will probably have 16 (O__o) kids!
I've never teached a group that big... sooo nervous...
what if they don't like my dancestyle?!
But not to worry about that, it hasn't even started yet LOL

with all the dancing I must reach my ideal weight as well :) so all that's good!

AND Dirk and I finally are setting a date for the photoshoot. I love that guy, he's so funny... telling me he has pumps in his closet... (for some reason, I wasn't surprised *chuckles*) and he's really good in what he does, so I'm dead excited!

oooh and school's starting again. Part of me doesn't want to, as I know after this year it will be finished. But the bigger part of me can't wait!
Finally acting again. I miss that... and thanks to me we have the best director EVER to teach us :D
I'm so so proud that Helmert Woudenberg will teach us, just because I asked him too.
He is someone who knows me so well, and he's convinced of my talent. Well since he's a big director here, it looks like i have some talent *giggles*

WOOOOHOOOO a brand new schoolyear ahead of me and this will be happening for sure:
Graduating (who wants a party???)
Being a proper danceinstructor :)
New Take That album + promo
Touring in the summer, meeting up with all my friends

what more can a girl ask for, right?!

Thank U

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 06:43:55 GMT

just wanted to say thanks to all my lovely friends :D
who are always here for me eventhough they have plenty of things on their plate themselves!

so a BIG thank you sweeties!

I am taking my meds now (so Lyss you don't have to text me, do I have to text you though??)
and as I have the day off today, I'm thinking of going to the beach as that always helps :D

Yesterday work was way too much as I had to work with my collegue who isn't allowed to do much since she still has an infection in her arm.
So I was working like a double shift...
BUT now I have 2 days off, and then 4 more days to work. After that I finally (well it is my last week before school starts) have some days off and will spend them with my girls :D

so I have good things to look forward too!

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN MY LOVES!!!

We all fall down

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 07:38:10 GMT

Ever since I can remember, I've had bad joints.
Not that they hurt 24/7 but there's a lack of cartilage in me that make my joints hurt, like I'm some old lady.
People usually have that when they're old... I have it already.
So I have to take these jointsupplements, but I always forget...
And if the weather is good (warm and moist) I don't feel it that bad. But recently, eventhough it's been warm around here,
I've been feeling it more and more. And mostly my wrists.
I think it's because of my new job. Have to carry large boxes and stuff all the time... and we have airconditioning, which doesn't really help, but without it, I'll faint cause it's too bloody hot!

So now, I'm taking my supplements (with everything else I'm taking, I believe I take around 12 pills a day now :s)
and have my left wrist (which hurts the most) in a support band:

It sucks... why do I have this already? Can't imagine what I'm going to be like when I'm old... probably end up in a wheelchair unable to move...