So basically it's been my dream to move to the UK ever since I was a little girl.
My mum can remember me telling her I wanted to live in England when I was about 9-years-old. Perhaps that had something to do with the fact I was in love with a certain guy from a certain boyband, but even when that band split 2 years later, my love for England (and that man *lol*) stayed.
Just before I went off to highschool, I went to London for the very first time. Me and my mum together. Staying in a fancy hotel near High Street Kensington, enjoying the London life.
And as the years passed, the want to live there only increased. Whenever I go there, I feel right at home. Feels like there's something missing when I'm here in Amsterdam.
Can't explain what it is, I just feel free when I'm in the UK.

As I grew older, my ultimate dream became to be an actress in England. I know the chances are way smaller even then they are here, but even if I'll never make it, it will always be my dream.
English costume drama is what I dream of, just put me in a dress and give me a Mr Darcy *lol*
But any drama is fine by me.

And so after highschool, I went to dramaschool. Finished that last year and thought about going to London.
Contacted some amazing people over there, like Tim Driessen, a Belgian guy who played in Never Forget the musical. Told him he lived a life I dreamt of and if he had any ideas of what I could do. He gave me a long list, very nice guy!
Then Ciaran Connolly. Take That's best dancer and cutest guy EVER, mailed me and gave me some more advice.
I kept coming back to my ultimate dream school. The LAMDA. Known as one of the best drama schools in the UK, some even say the world.
They now have this special summer programm for people who've already finished a dramaschool abroad, but want to try and act in the UK.
It's a tough course, you need to work real hard, improvise, work with texts, movement, voice training, improve your english, learn how to get on in the industry and finish with a presentation.
I wanted to apply, but the thing was, you needed to have studied English. Either short or long, but something at the least.
And I haven't.
So I panicked for a short moment and then asked my good friend Petra for help. She lives in England now for years and years but does know the Dutch school system as well.
I wrote a letter in Dutch, she translated to English and her boyfriend Andrew, who's a writer, made the letter perfect.
In the letter I explained why I wanted to take the course, how it's my dream and why I think my English is strong enough already. Explained about the Dutch school system, that I got a 9,5 in my oral exam (out of 10), that you could compare VWO to A-Level studies etc. etc.
The letter was just perfect.
And today I got a reply....

I was so nervous opening the mail...
But it was the best EVER! It said the letter was good enough and I could apply. *screams*
I can apply on October 1st. Have to attach the letter and then pray to get in (as there are limited places, applying doesn't garantuee a place...)
Seriously, I am so happy with the fact that I'm allowed to apply, it's not even normal!!!

The only thing now is, I need to safe my money BIG time. The course is incredibly expensive.
Now Gemma offered that I can stay in her house the entire course since she has a spare room, to safe me some money.
I might take her up on that offer since it could safe me a lot.
The only thing is that she lives just outside London, which would mean I'd have to travel a lot, and since the school's in Kensington, I prefer to stay around there.
Now I'm going to try and search for something. I'd love to stay in the Pink Palace during the course, but that would be expensive.
My mum and sister might want to come over though, for the last week of the course, to see my presentation (I don't even know if that's allowed yet but still). That could safe me some money too, as they will pinch in.
If I get in, it means I'll be saving every penny I can get my hands on. Which means I probably will not be the best friend in the world... won't call much, will still texts as that costs less, won't travel if I don't have too... sounds strict but I don't have much money to begin with and since I'll be losing my job by the end of this year, I need to try and safe as much as I can.
So I hereby would like to apologize to everyone if I won't be in touch much. I'll be online a lot so I won't be out of touch, I just have to do everything I can to get my hands on some money. (And I doubt Jason wanting to sponsor me... though I'll pay him back with interest ;) )
As it would be totally devistating if I get in, but have to turn it down since I can't afford it!

I just have to think about all that...
Or maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should first wait and see if I get in. Or else I might be really disappointed if I don't... I don't want to jinx anything...

but maybe, just maybe, my dream is going to come true!
 

Sooo happy. Sounds stupid perhaps but without your bike, in Amsterdam, you somewhat have lost your freedom!

and now I'm able to go where I want to again, without being afraid that my bike will stop working...
Now the only thing i need to make sure of is that it won't get stolen ;)

WE WOOOONNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know, it shouldn't be such a big issue for Ajax, but lately it has been.
In the competition we suck and we might have won our first duel in the UEFA cup (that ain't CL is it?!)

so tonight we had to play our first Cup game against Utrecht, which is always a real hard game with loads of cards and fights and stuf...
Utrecht got a red card, we got a penalty, we missed and it looked like we were doomed again....
BUT then we scored twice and played real good football :D
we should've scored more, but heck, we can't complain, we bloody WON!

let's hope this will be normal from now on again, it's about time we start winning the chamionship again... :)

Like I mentioned in one of my previous blogs, I decided to quit dance teaching.
Just because of lack of time and stuff...

Now my mum had a meeting today so she just got home and I just got home from ballet, she said:
'Sweetie, you have to see this...'

and guess what?
One of the girls from her class decided it was time for a petition to bring me back O__o
yes you are hearing that correctly!

and 10 girls signed it.
Now how can I resist teaching those sweet kiddos???
So I told my mum that I'll write a note for the parents, and if they still want to pay me, I'll do it.
Just an hour a week though, nothing more.
And just untill the my graduation, after that, it's TT time :lol:

Can you believe it?
I'm actually wanted somewhere... and they all think I'm brilliant *ignorant little kids*

WOW... I'm still a bit like O___o

it does mean it will be one busy year for me, but this is something... man, i feel really honoured or something :)

yeah, rumor has it that's one of the songs of TT's new record :D
 

but that wasn't what I wanted to say.
FIrst of all: thank you all for your concern, but I'm fine, doctor cleared me.
Got different meds and quit my dance teaching job.
Didn't want to do the last thing, but I HAD to take it easier or else I'd died or something...

now back to what I was going to say:

I'm a good actress and I'm beautiful!


ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL

nope, I haven't turned all cocky and arrogant, don't believe it just yet.
But people start saying it to me all the time now...
I actually am starting to believe that I have some acting skills.
There was this assignment (really hard to explain...) but anyways, I was the only one who managed to do it. AND when I got home, my headmaster of the school who gave that class texted me: Dear Sarah, you did amazing. Well done! Now let it go and enjoy your weekend! love, Thijs.

I was like O___o omg... he is known to be the thoughest teacher EVER!
so I felt real good.

Besides that, my classmates are really impressed too. They all say that they don't know what happened but over summer, I changed a lot. Are stronger, more open and more selfconfident (thinking Lyss boosting my confidence starting to show *giggles*)

And they say I look good. Which is nice that they are noticing since I'm working out and watching my diet for weeks now :D

then today, at work. I had a customer saying: I know they probably tell you all the time, but you are really beautiful, inside out!
I blushed insanely... *too bad it wasn't a cute guy saying so*
but I felt loads better throughout the day after that!!!
I'm not believing that part yet though, mirrors I look in don't show what other people apparently see... :S
but hey, it's a start that other people see it :D